give me 30 seconds to give you this bloody kiss with this bloody romance.

love is no longer interesting, i was just a fault to you..

2005-04-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

dearest heart,

i wonder how you've been, i've waited long to see you..
i wonder if you still know me..
i wonder if you still love me..
i really wished it was you..
i hoped so..
but i cant to think how i end those nights missing your sweet caress and endless smiles..
and how you play with my heart and never letting it go..
i can't breathe..
just throw my heart back..
throw the letters and those kisses too..
and burn those memories, and my i love you's as well..
its been 10 months 14 days and 13 hours 15 minitues and 24 seconds since you left..
now your back..
making this heart bleed again once more..
i know i was over it..
i was over you..
but i can't teach this heart not to love you back..
your just all that i see, your all that i breathe, your everything to me..
but the hardest thing is..
"were just friends."
i really wished it was me and you.
now your leaving and all i have to say is "goodbye."

bled for you,
aries

when the stars will fade i will lie awake..

2005-03-21T23:45:00.000-08:00

i used to believe stars never existed..

i used to believe they were never there..

i was wrong

i was blind..

there was you..

my star..

my love..

but then..

i don't know how i could tell these things to you..

i guess i never had the chance to tell you how much you mean to me..

how i burden your pain and suffering..

how i give you my time and efforts..

i just can't show you how i feel..

im just scared..

scared that one day, you and me were'nt meant to be..

if ever given a chance to be we with you..

i promise you this..

with all of me

and with all my heart..

i'll love you like the love you never had..

i'll give you those kisses as sweet as honey and permanentlike a tatoo scabbed across my chest..

i'll always be we with you when you have no one..

i'll do your dishes and do your laundry when your sick..

i'll walk your dog and treat him well the way i treat you...

but still.. no dog can replace you..

your just my everything..

everything i wanted..

i just wanna be with you..

just you..

and if that happens.

i would be the happiest man that ever lived this earth..

and i promise you this..

i'll love you with every single breathe that i take..

and with every single word that i say..

you'll always be there..

and i'll never ever find someone like you..

i hope you read this..

i hope you see what you mean to me..

i love you..

and its all that i can do..

love you..

missing you secretly,

me :D

your smile, my happiness

2005-03-21T07:10:00.001-08:00

this one's for you you know who you are :)

yikes!!

i love you

(iba na yan !! )

the girl with a sweet smile..

( aieee !! )

i miss you

( ows? )

when you log off your yahoo :P

( lol. )

i care for you

( really? )

when you feel lonesome and weary.. "dnt be sad im always here for you" remember?

( i do )

i just love you the way you are..

(i really do !)

i miss those times when we would chat all day and share our thoughts..

i just miss them..

(awwww.. )

the way i miss you..

( so much! )

so so so so so so so much..

see you soon luv you..

Yeahhhhhhh !!!

2005-03-12T20:34:00.000-08:00

yeahhhhhh...

its been a while..

hahahaha..

ill be posting some stuff sometime.. haha

yeahhhhhhh coolness.. haha

see you soon guys.. ..!..

love spells bleed..

2004-11-24T13:01:00.000-08:00

i died, did you miss me?

could you give me something real

a lie that i can finally feel

to live with and to die with

to laugh with and to cry with

said the happiest girl on depression lane

because i'm gonna need a cutin order to keep this up

be my knife on raw open wounds

be my slow approaching doomslither through me like the cold

that shivers up my spine

so in pain that it stops all tears

and cures all fearsand is my anthem forever more

cried that clever little girl on hypocondra street

believe that i will aways fall

i am not worth the nails

that will enter in the palms

bending over both my arms

to be yours and only his

for a night, for a kiss

studdering plastered jumping into the streetnot watching for the carsway to many scars

i bequith you mars

were the last forgotten words

of the prettiest

most alone girl

dying on the road

opperator! opperator?

there has been an accident for an accidentalon depression lane and hypocondra street

123 death p.o. box suicide

hellhole drive

that accident lost my love.

and that love was you.

i for "love", and you "left?"

2004-11-24T03:31:00.000-08:00

i wrote this for you to see whats inside of me..

what am i supposed to do?
each day means, "i" missing you..
what went wrong?
can't you see what you mean to me?
everytime i see your face..
makes everyday worth a living..
i really miss you..
i can't take this anymore..
if you just open whats inside of you, stop looking..
your making this worst.

each day, i bleed just to think of it, each hour, remembering the bliss of this love, remembering you and me.. how we felt , how we fought, how we cried..

how i used to call you my star.
if i could just see you again..
not to call you mine..
but just a memory..

i know you loved me..

if you just gave me that one chance for this love..
you could've been the remedy for these scars, these scars above my chest.
the deepest wounds a knife could stab..
stab me to death, and call me yours..
kiss me with your red lips..
love me, or.
let me die..
bury me..
stop this pain that breaks me..
just know this,
i means me, love means missing you, and you, the star that once shined upon me..
left.. never coming back again..
i remember these words.. "i love you.."

starless no more?

2004-11-23T05:18:00.000-08:00

haha it was dax's birthday last friday.. i had a great time,especially when i got to see the bands "cheese and some of greyhoundz" it was fun with ate tracy , maki , jerome , jep , andre , igi , jhayzon ,jhigz , glen , um their couzin haha forgot his name, ate gracy (long back) haha kidding joanne , kuya maki brilliantes <--(haha made my day) and of course dax the birthday girl hihi i stayed there for four days neat! haha i havent taken a bath yet, well just now i had 1 haha newaiz i had a great time.. especially when i met this girl..it felt like my heart kept on pumping and pumping and pumping.. and when she spoke, i can feel my breathe gasping for air, the adrenaline rushed my veins telling me that it might be "her" she had the brightest smiles and those sweet little eyes.. argh.. haha i dunno what im feeling right now.. it feels like im falling for something ive been longing to have.. the girl of my dreams..
my star.. i hope to see her soon.. soon.. oh wellz i cant sleep.. *bang*

it feels like the first time but it isnt..

2004-11-19T03:52:00.000-08:00

i miss the scent of your kiss..

the essence of your touch..

the way you make me feel..

how my heart screams, how you heal my scars..

how you heal my broken heart..

now im missing you..

do you even see me?

i close my eyes and let it be

because i just cant see why you love to hate me..

those times.. argh..

i miss them..

do i ever cross your mind?

do i ever make you happy when sadness blooms..

do you ever think about me often?

i love you..

i really do..

bah.. :/

nevermind..

a fragile moment?

2004-11-15T02:38:00.000-08:00

so i admit, your all i have left..

just in case you dont see..

i wrote your name in my memories..

i gave up my last breathe, just to write it..

still you didnt see..

would you let me be your portrait..

with all the words im saying..

coz all i could paint in this portrait is a wonderful scar across my chest..

just a single kiss from you, would heal this wound in a single fragile moment..

you were open to me.. i was to you..

you never have my shoulder now, my eyes are always open to take you..

to perfection.. you never listened..

i did what i was supposed to do..

i just waited for you to scream " more "..

i just tried my best it grew old..

now i have no more..

i have no "you" in "me"..

so watch me die in silence..

"should i wait for you and see me pull this trigger?"

what am i supposed to do..

just listen to me..

"i loved you."

2004-11-13T01:23:00.000-08:00

just think it for the weekend maybe we could be something.. and we ever find out what this is all about. this thought are worth of our time.. .

2004-11-11T22:03:00.000-08:00

HAHA LAUGH ALL YOU CAN..

its an even score..

2004-11-11T21:12:00.000-08:00

wala lang its 9:12 pm hehe.. im trying to fix my pc.. hehe gumana naman.. hehe newaiz.. la sobrang bored.. i woke up like 2:30 pm haha.. shit.. di pa ko naliligo.. wahahaha oh well.. ingat kayo.. " so stop the bleeding , cut the lies , press my heart , kiss my lips.. hold my hand, say goodbye. <3>

i bleed your name..

2004-11-11T01:08:00.000-08:00

its 1:05 am,and im still thinking of you.. how much more if i waited long.. hundreds of days.. thousands of hours... millions of seconds.. endless ticks, endless tocks. i see millions of things.. i dream of but why can't i picture you with me.. is it because your far away from me.. and things couldnt work out the way they used to, or is it because your scared, Scared of trying to fall again. trying to be one happy person the way you used to be.. trying to be a girl with a star.. but scared to try. Just remember this.. in life there are people who risk andlet go.. .. risks have unpredictable results.. but it wouldnt be the end for you if you took your risk.. i took mine on you.. it just didnt work out the way i wanted it to be. i hope your reading this. coz when you do. i hope you know what your missing.. what you've always wanted.. to be a happy person.. i was happy when i felt the pleasures with you.. those times when we used to converse from minutes to hours.. days and months.. i had the best times with you.. but there's one thing i need to do.. get over you.. i have a life.. i have a future.. even if it wasnt with you.. i want you to know..i really loved you.. not with what you look like.. but with all of you.. i loved you with all of me.. i know you cared.. i know you did.. I HOPE YOU DID..

your so slow..

2004-11-10T10:05:00.000-08:00

how many emo kids does it take to light a bulb?

give up..

the answer is.

it doesn't matter because they

are all cut up in my basement.

you took my heart.. now i have yours..

2004-11-10T01:42:00.000-08:00

i realized something.. in life.. there are two people, the ones who love.. and those who are loved..
i find myself a person loving and not expecting that person to love me back.. i used to love someone. that person used to make my endless sorrows to bright smiles.. a saddist boy.. into a new found person.. my starless heart.. found its star.. but.. why can't i have you.. why? if those reasons mean much to you.. than me. i understand. but remember this.. i always needed you.. you always took me by the hand.. did i ever feel how you felt for me.. i didnt.. like what i told you.. i never expected anything.. i just tried.. i fell.. i cried.. now i ask this.. let this bleeding heart heal without your essense.. your memories.. your sense.. your everything..

2004-11-09T13:44:00.000-08:00

deym wahaha i miss my hair.. taena mo mark wahaha tangna.. pis newaiz.. im here at home.. its 5:43 am.. haiz sarap talaga ibalik ung times nung nasa csa pa ko.. hehe la lang.. i miss you guys.. ingat kayo.. mwah mwah.. steeg nalaseng ako LOL.. lam nyu un.. hihihi sige bye..

my heart bled?

2004-11-09T13:31:00.000-08:00

i know i found my heart.. its in you.. take it off.. forget about me..

i found my heart in your eyes..

2004-11-09T13:20:00.000-08:00

i pretend that im strong..big dreams make lies.i fall apart so often..and all my hopes are failed from the start..take me home is it up..i just cant fold..i feel i'd lost it all..wont you find me..take me with you..i feel so lonely i just cant live alone..when i lost you.. i lost all of me.. i dont want to be alone tonight.. ill find my way tonight.. i found my heart.. in your eyes.. but you found me..
now you took me with you.. home..

2004-11-09T13:19:00.000-08:00

i put your pictures on my head.. i dont want it anymore.. i must get over you.. and through all it all.. i still got your shirt and you fill this room with memories.. when i heart the sound of your voice ,that i cant forget... all i remember is you. <3>

2004-11-09T13:16:00.000-08:00

she holds me when i start to cry
makes me smile with just her eyes
shares my hopes, dreams, and fears.
wipes away all my tears..
i love her without regret
i hope i found her yet..

2004-11-09T13:13:00.000-08:00

I once had a heart
and it was true but
now it's gone from me to you
so take care of it
as I have done because
now you have two and I have none.

2004-11-09T13:10:00.000-08:00

Love is like your shadow, stop trying to chase after it,
because it'll run away from you.
Learn hard to walk away from it
than it'll come after you.

2004-11-09T10:53:00.000-08:00

you never made me happy..

2004-11-09T10:52:00.000-08:00

and when you feel the pain. im wishing i could stay how can i say.. i love you back.. you never made me happy..

2004-11-09T10:40:00.000-08:00

you and me.. used to be one heart.. now its cut into half.. my other half.. my other soul..

2004-11-09T10:39:00.000-08:00

2004-11-09T10:35:00.000-08:00

i picture you.. with me.. nevermind..

2004-11-09T10:33:00.000-08:00

well i hope that you are happy..

i saw it coming..

2004-11-07T02:02:00.000-08:00

short and simple..

fake and naive..

restless and helpless..

i kissed you goodbye..

you kissed me sooner than expected..

i closed my eyes..

you opened my heart..

i hate to say this but i miss you so..

i must admit i saw it coming..

2004-11-03T04:51:00.000-08:00

i cant help it.. i wont be able to forget your face.. im starting to forget your smile. because its killing me. my shining star.. my other half.. where art though? why leave me? you kissed me through sleepless nights.. whatever happend between us.. im starting to forget your smile.. i always keep it in, in some place in me. thats waiting for this to end.. i'm sleeping tonight in silence. i'd rather break my heart than break yours.. i love you? who loves you more.. i can't live a lie. i can't live a day without you by my side.. my other half. my star.. my love.. i miss you :(

it wasnt worth my time..

2004-11-03T01:10:00.000-08:00

so please.. stop this.. i waited forever to be with you.. im saying goodbye.. x.x

im about to see a million things i thought id never see before and i, im about to do all of the

things that i dreamed of and. i dont even miss you at all.

you kissed me goodbye..

2004-11-03T01:05:00.000-08:00

so please..

stop this..

this isnt right..

you shined upon me..

i bled in you..

you put me inside your foolishness..

now im drowning..

i can't escape this..

just kill me..

its that simple..